wow, it has been a bajillion years since i came on this thing.

...

i really dont have much to say actually, which is why i'm never on
finals are coming up really soon. and i haven't even started studying. i'm screwed...

i REALLY miss high school, i miss all high school friends.
and seriously, you really dont make new GOOD friends in university. the people you talk to, or at least the people i talk to in university are just friends because we're put in a place together. i dont really chill w/them outside school, so you cant realy get close w/them either. unless u drink a lot. but i swear im allergic to alcohol or sth, and i dont even drink that much. meh. it's 11:30. im gonna start studying so i feel more accomplished... or else i might as well have gone out w/everyone.

i'm drowning...

i am physically and emotionally exhausted
fucking midterms .
im not going to be done studying for mythology anytime soon. looks like another all nighter
damn these greek gods and their roman names.
bye kids. off i go

here i am, sitting at school in a study room at 7:00 am. i attempted to... do work. i've been here for an hour now, and i wrote 1 paragraph for geography. i have 2 midterms to study for that are this week. and i really hate it when people use an elipses after every sentence. wowww i am making a lot of sense. theres only 2 people here, and they're both sleeping. i should probably do the same considering i'll be here for a WHILE. i can't wait to get home, and the day hasn't even begun.

i write pointless entries...
this weekend was boring.
2 weeks.

i have an assignment due tmr for mythology. its worth 10%. i had no previous knowledge going into this course. and i have no creativity or a great imagination. great job, go me. anwyays. i never really have anything interesting to say. except, basketball season is just around the corner, and i'm excited : )

i miss everyoneee

i need to... CATCH UPPPPP
must do linguistics, geography ASSIGNMENT!!! read 4 chapters in mythology, econ and management
okay.. time is running out
i must attend to the studies


on the other hand...
im HATING everyones cellphone for not working at school. can anyone get reception???

Monica is asleep right now.

Sooooooo, pee pee poo poo pee pee pooo poo poo poo. Mcpoopoo. I need something to support it. Mmmhmmmm...ughhhh...mmmm..ohhh, is it in yet? UGH. bye.


- MENP.

once again i felt like sucha loner at school for about 45 minutes. after that, i found people i knew and then i went to linguistics tutorial. and during the tutorial i felt like a loner again : ( but then after that, i found lots of people :)
and then i went to economics with friends. anyhow, i'm 1000 years behind in economics esp because it involves derivatives. and then theres the 7001853920 pages that i have to read in.. just about everything. and here i am... wasting my life

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

: )

it would be that there are some serious selfish people in this world and talking to my buddy krista has made me realize that : )
some people dont realize the distress they put other people in. why doesnt karma ever affect them?? i dont understand the way things work around here.

tomorrow is the first day of school
I DONT HAVE THURSDAYS OFF ANYMORE... im taking linguistics.. =/ whatever the hell that is. its so useless too because im gonna go to school from 4-6. what a waste of a day!!! damn thursdays.

this year, i'm gonna be a nerddddd

everyone has something to say about their summer and how we're moving on, and it hasn't even hit me yet that we're all parting ways and are supposedly gona "mature" into real human beings ready to embark on real life. & although we all think we're smart asses because we've experienced "so much" in high school, we probably have no idea what shit is ahead. although i thought the "high school drama" was gonna be over, i realize now that is never ending.



WAIT. i'll continue this later because phil and i are gonna go to bestbuy.

the day started off slow...

but it ended off nicely : )

went to work this morning, and i did bbq. it rained half way, t'was funnnn. and those people were so cheap and retarted today. this one girl came for a popsicle more than 3 times and in the end my boss wouldnt give her one, and she kept complaining. haw haw.

i've been thinking...

according to phil, i said hormones get the best of some people.
tis true.

anyways. i've been seeing a lot of leah lately. and work people.
ever since i've been back, my summer has been ruined. i really don't want to see you two, it makes me want to barf chunks. i dont want to go out with my friends because of you two. i fucking loathe u at the moment.
i thought you were a better friend. i didnt think i was affected at first but i realize that somehow i am. it hurt that you had to ask me in the first place if it was "ok". wtf am i supposed to say? what hurts the most is that you alreayd know how i feel b/c someone told u. so what are u gona do about it? obviously nothing.

yesterday i went into work at 8am for prep.
and i ended up closing so i left at 8:45 pm
i felt so wired when i got to leah's house. 5 minutes into the movie, i fell asleep. and i left at 12 something, dropped off eddy and came home and slept. that was a good sleep. today i'm off to the golf course with my dad. just don't want a really humongous gross tan. i also haven't practised golf in a long ass time. i hope i can still hit the ball.

i havent really seen everyone together for a while. but anyways, last night was the compass bowling event. leah and i walked there and even though we were late, there werent that many people there yet. but big turn out though, a lot of people went. it was fun. cept i hardly bowled and everytiem i did i got gutter balls. afterwards, went to all star wing to pick up wings w/some work people. saw so many people there that i havent seen in years. and then we ate them at the beach by pickering. it was a random night. got home at 2 and woke up 20 mins ago. i'm tired but i cant sleep. so here i am.

so a lot has been on my mind lately. and i've decided to FUCK THAT SHIT.
let's change it up.

never have i been such a bitch
never have i been so vulnerable
never have i felt so useless
never have i felt so unwanted






hello pms

after my conversation with phil a very long time ago, i had funnnnn. but its been relaly hot here. and i got 18 mosquito bites that all swelled up and stuff cause there were soo many mosquitos when i went to this place called suzhou to visit my families graves. i also played with my little cousin. hmm, i'm pretty bad at updating. but i went to yuyuan garden and i bought some more stuff. oh i went to beijing too, and climbed the great wall. and all these palaces where the king lived. it may sound boring cause thats what i thought at first, but china has soooo much history, 5000 years and so many dynasties!! i'm such a dork. my great uncle gave me a set of souvenirs for the 2008 olympics. oh and in beijing, theres this other place called the summer palace where the king lived during the summer, like a cottage and its big and ancient. theres 18 million people in shanghai. i couldnt adjust to the fact that theres people everywhere and in big quantaties where you get squished everywhere. but as soon as i started to adjust, im gona come home soon, in 2 days. i also bought the complete set for the oc, and i've been watching that when i get home from places. and oh yeah, its sooooooooooo hot here. i feel like i'm sweating buckets as soon as i leave the house. but i got used to that too. and i got used to tying my hair up too. i wake up at 6 am everyday because outside is so bright and loud. today after breakfast, i went to sleep again, and i woke up at 1. yeahhh. i was tired. i think i caught a cold from yesterday cause it was raining and kind of cold, anyways i didn't think i'd have fun, but i did/am. i'll see u guys soooooon.

so here i am in china

getting a ton of mosquito bites and such.
i also bought two bags for 600 RMB !!!
i don't think thats exactly cheap either. hehehe

anyways i can't wait to come home because of these god damn mosquito bites
im having fun buying dvds and stuff

for these past few days, i've been thinking things.
i don't want to go into detail because i don't even really know how to put it into words myself. it's like bits and pieces in my head.


it's all a cycle... isn't it?

can't wait until the girls get back from quebec.